Fear

My biggest fear isn’t that you’ll lie to me one day or you’ll cheat on me. My biggest fear is that when things are going just right and one Sunday morning you wake up before me and instead of kissing me you  begin to notice my flaws. You began to notice my crooked nose or maybe my not so perfect hair. You might notice the color of my skin or maybe the stretch marks on my body. You might remember a few things and maybe that might be just enough to ignite this thought in your head if I am really the one or not. 
You might walk out towards the kitchen through the sunrays peeping through the window and come to a conclusion, that for no particular reason at all, you don’t love me anymore. 

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