I am here

I woke up saying your name again
I called out to you out of habit
You are always here!!
To comfort me when i had bad dreams
To tell me "I am here" in a gentle way
I could feel you walking away...
And, all I wanted was you close to me
When I woke up saying your name again
I miss you being next to me,
But, i watched you walk away from me
And, I don't believe you will be coming back again
So, I will continue woking up saying your name
Until I erase you from myself
Until then I will miss the nights you would tell me
That "I am here" again!!

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